Saturday, May 21, 2005
i lived a life and
dreamed a dream
and loved the life
you lived with me
then in the whisper
of a breathyou left,
and then I died
a death
a death
so clean.
so pure.
so silent.
yet its softly dreading us away from reality.
telling us there is no hope left.
so hand in hand.
we make the jump
the last jump of our life
but i did not die.
Not.
Entirely
.
instead
i was shattered into pieces.
i tried picking up the pieces of my life
joining it together
.but everytime i try.
it breaks again.
nthing can heal it back.
not time ;
not love
not security .
even if it does.
all that is left is the
big dent in my life
no.not a dent<
a huge crack.
a crack.
so ugly.
it leaves a scar.
a scar that for once
too deep to heal.
to painful to feel.
and for once.
too real .
but what did i do?
i bear it.
i bore all the shame.
the unhappiness.
the pain.
i keep it all inside.
sofly killing me emotionally ;
it was the biggest mistake i made.
so now i wear a mask everywhere i go
you won't ever know my true identity.
i hide myself.
so deep.
its like i am gone.
many thinks the frown
i have is the real me.
but the frown is just my mask .
plaster the smile.
a beautiful mask ;
i cry the tears.
tears i have never cried before.
blood streams done my face.
done onto my torso.
tears ; cries.
are now my friends
laughter ; smile
my foes
who caused all these?
you.
YOU!
you made me.
you are the toymaker.
you made me this way.
why?
the one i hung onto ;
the one i trusted most ;
the one who put the mask down .
just for you.
hallucinator - unknown did this.
now many thinks that i am in my own fantasy ;
but do they know. the mask i wear . is wearing thin ?
it`s so thin. that now. i am showing the werld the real me ;
i am so scared that if i actually show `
pple. cant accept me .
SIGH-
I MISS YOU LOADS
let there be none. 9:08 PM
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Saturday, May 21, 2005
i lived a life and
dreamed a dream
and loved the life
you lived with me
then in the whisper
of a breathyou left,
and then I died
a death
a death
so clean.
so pure.
so silent.
yet its softly dreading us away from reality.
telling us there is no hope left.
so hand in hand.
we make the jump
the last jump of our life
but i did not die.
Not.
Entirely
.
instead
i was shattered into pieces.
i tried picking up the pieces of my life
joining it together
.but everytime i try.
it breaks again.
nthing can heal it back.
not time ;
not love
not security .
even if it does.
all that is left is the
big dent in my life
no.not a dent<
a huge crack.
a crack.
so ugly.
it leaves a scar.
a scar that for once
too deep to heal.
to painful to feel.
and for once.
too real .
but what did i do?
i bear it.
i bore all the shame.
the unhappiness.
the pain.
i keep it all inside.
sofly killing me emotionally ;
it was the biggest mistake i made.
so now i wear a mask everywhere i go
you won't ever know my true identity.
i hide myself.
so deep.
its like i am gone.
many thinks the frown
i have is the real me.
but the frown is just my mask .
plaster the smile.
a beautiful mask ;
i cry the tears.
tears i have never cried before.
blood streams done my face.
done onto my torso.
tears ; cries.
are now my friends
laughter ; smile
my foes
who caused all these?
you.
YOU!
you made me.
you are the toymaker.
you made me this way.
why?
the one i hung onto ;
the one i trusted most ;
the one who put the mask down .
just for you.
hallucinator - unknown did this.
now many thinks that i am in my own fantasy ;
but do they know. the mask i wear . is wearing thin ?
it`s so thin. that now. i am showing the werld the real me ;
i am so scared that if i actually show `
pple. cant accept me .
SIGH-
I MISS YOU LOADS
let there be none. 9:08 PM